demands are beneficial requests

I demand for many many beautiful things in my life. Demands that would satisfy my heart, soul and mind. Demands which are made to myself and the people around me - usually those people who are important to me, both directly and indirectly. Demands that can push me to achieve all my demands in life. Demands that made me way so demanding that anybody else could withstand.

Demander hardly make sacrifices. Usually, they expect sacrifices from others to achieve their demands. When these people failed to make such sacrifices, they tend to fail them in their hearts. Confused? Me too, probably cause i'm not demanding enough. =P

Pros & cons. When u have high demands, you have high requirements over things. As u reach it, you succeed with much joy and expect more demands in future, but when u fail to do so, is a big disappointment with heartbroken feelings. When u have no demands, you just tend to carry on your life smoothly with the perfect satisfaction - who tends to claim it as perfect.

Wouldn't smooth and satisfaction create a better picture than demands and disappointment? Less stress, less hurt, less torture, less agony.. better health.

Well, i choose to travel by air.


I think I have a very high demand for a pilot boyfriend. Who's up for it? (for 2012 planning as well) - see, i dun demand out of nothing, that's annoyance. My demands are for future benefits, for all. =P

A getaway for me, please?

I need a break from this hectic semester. Is a huge suffer to my brain n my heart, living in agony for the past months. Moving forward in this manner will definitely lead to brain cancer and heart attack. Health is wealth. I absolutely concede.

I need a getaway.

I can't wait to bungkus my fyp in a messy wrapper and tie it untidily with a string or rope -anything i can find from the lab, no matter how it is going to look, i just want to wrap it fast. As fast as i could and as long as it is wrapped, cause..

I need a getaway.

I wanna go home!!! see my family, the girls and lexus. I can't wait to go taiwan with my beloved gals and coursemates!!! I've bought my luggage bag today, create more of the excitement already.

I need a getaway.

I promise to unlace the strings and release the packaging the moment i return from taiwan, after settling down in upm. I will make the best wrapper and enfold all of it together, trim the ribbons, decorate it and finally, bind it so that it's going to look so good and charming from the outside, and so exquisite from the inside.

In short, i'll try my best to hit an A, i say it, i mean it, i do it.... they give it. =)

As for now, I need a getaway.

i shoudn't

我們的紀念

Our Commemoration – Shivia Lee

Endless tears, I cried another couple times
Transformed into a butterfly stopping on top of this falling leaf
The wind-swept snow had been buried thousand years ago
I used up a lifetime of longing just waiting for you to appear

Memories began to wither around me
Couldn’t revive the picture that was moving before

Let us stay on the side line of reincarnation
Waiting for a stream of light
To peer into the time when we
Made a prediction
Let it take away that moment of yours
Making it our commemoration
Who would notice that my world had your face once upon a time?

--adapted from DramaWiki


uncertain and doubtful feelings striking. I Shouldn't. You Shouldn't. I have another paper in 2 days time, i should get rid of your images with the pure facts from Access Network lectures. I need to concentrate. Why are there so many awaiting, yet i am waiting for you? What 've you got that i should be waiting? Why am i living in agony but you could through every minutes with ignorance? I guess I just Shouldn't.