bringing back the past....

Nothing to brag about, really. Jus for reminiscing.Just for laughs gags.

ego is a (L)Attitude

ego is a LousyAttitude. overconfident(-ve)+pride(-ve)=ego Simple mathematics resulting ego to be a very negative value, a very unsatisfactory and bad figure or simply lousy.

ego is a LastingAttitude. Unwilling to change or stubborn eventually increase the ego in one. Not only does the ego multiplies and grows yet is buried deeply in one self that it would take forever to dig all out. length(l) directly proportional with time(t)

ego is a LostAttitude. The ego in one eventually leads to underestimating everything in the world and exaggerating sense of self-importance. Imagine 7 8 9 and the 7 showing off to other numbers after 8ing 9, which badly humiliates 9 without considering its own value is in fact smaller than 9. Wake up seven, are u lost? learn up ur numerical order.
ego is a leastAttitude. Lowest in important or rank when it comes to personal attributes. Smallest in magnitude or degree when it comes to Latitude of morality. Slightest or thiniest when it comes to beneficial of life.

Ego is measured in a LAtitude manner which is the angular distance north or south of the human’s equator, measured in degrees along human meridian, as on the human portion himself. So measure the ego in you and realise it before it exceeds the limit. In fact a humble person should result in a pure zero value. any numbers beyond zero, repent and transform.


zero

God is fair. nobody was born with anything. it all started from zero. even in a set of increasing posiive or negative integers, it starts from zero. is the multiplication and power that matters. perhaps u claim that as unfair? well i think is more to luck. lucky enuff, u get great power series that multiplied into huge integers added directly from your zero or inversely, not to say bad luck, maybe slightly less luck, u hav a tiny multiplication. the point is, so what? don;t tell me ur whole life jus depend on the luck the minute u were born? there is nothing to be blamed if u were born with small r(ratio btw terms) and similiarly, nothing to be proud of if u have big r. back to the 1st sentence God is fair. u have the rest of life to change ur luck! yeah either to change it from bad to good or vice versa. that i find it pretty fair. in this case, life is neither arithmetic nor geometric series. it has a non-static value of r. u have the right to decide ur own r. example, bill gates himself was a great proof here. he started with a small r and guess what now? even a mathematician has doubts calculating the r which is increasing by seconds.. n is that by luck? just be wise, if ur smart, congrats ur on ur way to gain wisdom. if ur not smart, then fill ur cup with knowledge, is important in life. then apply, utilise, control it. think intelligently,learn experiencely.

choose while u can. know what ur doin n make sure is worth the effort. dun waste and start appreciate ur time. make an increment to your r, let ur series grow to infinity…may it be anything positvie. as long as it grows. remember u only succeed when ur really far from the zero u once had..and in this game u never fails (not even till u drop to negative) cos anytime u can hit up to thrillions!! never try never know..never know never learn, never learn never experience, never experience never grow, never grow REMAINS ZERO

It’s my life

the one decision u made, when u believe, will eventually change your whole life. now i couldn’t imagine myself in the picture i used to be anymore. not even my reflection. i have got a whole new world framed and hung in a locked room. yes, i have decided to get high and stay on with it. no changes can be made. 1234567, to the count of 7, the key to the room was thrown under the sea. i remember i kept a spare key on top of the world. to reach it, i have to get to the top. no more encore. oh, shut up, i said no encore. if u think you are a better man, then take on my job to heal the world. people said you are a hero, i don’t agree because i believe i can fly, for someday i will be higher and when the day comes i would make you say "can’t take my eyes off from you".

continue strive on and on. very soon u can get to your key and begin to paint the rest of your life all over again. whether to swim n dive into the deep deep sea or fly up the high high sky to get back the key. which is easier? you decide….

Amazing Grace!!!

priceless

Scene 1

"pak cik, ini berapa?"

"80ringgit"

"kurang sikit la pak cik"

"dah banyak kurang la, ini dari china, banyak tahan lasak"

Scene 2

walking into one of the designer's bag shop, u see a similar bag which you were negotiating earlier on the price in the wet market. The catch is, the price difference.

Which would you possibly get? Some would rather get a knockoff designer bag, hoping no one would recognize it for what it actually is, whereas for those who hates intellectual property theft, they wouldn't mind spending more even if it cost them to stuff over bread alone for the next couple of months. In short, is it worth it?

Diff people has diff desires in life, where fulfilling those desires simply add to their satisfactions and marking it another great day in their life. The only point to consider is whether if it's worthwhile. In fact, it's not even something to be considered at all, if it's really worth the money and time and effort.

Desire + satisfaction = worthwhile

time + money + effort = desire + satisfaction

but

worthwhile = OR != time + money + effort

If it's something that keep you wondering if it's worthwhile, it is most possibly not. Hesitations that aroused could be due to the blurry picture which has yet to reveal itself in your mind. After what we have been through, i am puzzled to find out that the picture remains black and white.

Since i have committed myself to finish painting the picture, i am totally held responsible to match the picture with suitable colours to ensure the end result is beautiful. However, I cant be living in a one way street. Tho i am artistic, 2nd point of view and help is very much needed to make the best picture out of it. Despite all the disputes we have on the colours, shadings, picture contrasts, brightness and tones, we know very well how significant this picture should be painted in order to put a genuine smile on our face at the end of the hard work.

What goes around, comes around. Things can be really simple and happy, with just one simple word.

Well i like it in blue, what do you think?

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it's been a while....since..

i took control

i have written here

i went wild with my pretty babes

i was in penang

i had mom's home cook food

i had kaya butter toast + cheese for my breakfast

i ordered dominos

i had cravings for tomyam

i ate sushi

i took nap during the day

i shopped madly

i hit the pool

i sang in the ktv

i went on a wonderful holiday

i had tiger

i lied by the beach

i heard from him

i have fallen in love

i missed someone

i held your hands

i had him in mind

i met someone

i drawn close to you

i fulfilled my commitments

i served you wholeheartedly

i pampered myself, enough.

But..... they are returning. The feelings and desires i once had and lost (had and lost...had..lost..lost..had....), are arousing and overwhelming me. I don't know where would this go from here. -positive or negative, happiness or sadness, sunny or stormy, black or white, hello or farewell, I just know that I need to

TOTALLY.

Is appearance important?

APPEARance is exactly the image you appear to others which lead to them having some thoughts and hence creating an image of you in them. "DUH"

Ever count how many times u looked into your own reflections in a day? I always tried to do the counting.. like..
wakes up ..walk to mirror.. count of 1
brush teeth..look at mirror.. count of 2
go toilet..look at mirror.. count of 3
out from toilet.. look at mirror.. count of 4
back in room.. stare into the mirror.. count of 5
get dress up.. look into the mirror again.. count of 6
apply facial products/lip bump/gloss.. look at mirror.. count of 7
before leave room..look at mirror..count of 8
before entering the car.. see own reflections.. count of 9
in the car..look at mirror.. bla bla..
bla bla..
mirror mirror
then i lost count.

Next day i reset and do the countings again. Then i lost count again. Forget it!

Yes indeed. Appearance is hell important. Caring for your appearance is like caring about what,how,where,which,when and who you appear to be. Most people tend to think that having physically good looks will make the best appearance. Well, this is actually a fact, but are you going to penalized those that are not in the category?

Whoever you are, or how you probably look like physically, really doesnt matter. Cause appearance is not plainly THE LOOKS, but is what,how,where,which,when and who you are and behave to be.

Having the good looks is an advantage but it definitely won't award you the best appearance each time, it is the attractiveness or interestingness that enables you to influence others and create a good impression in them. A nice appearance should be created with own formulations ( imagine blending jennifer anniston's beauty with einstein's brain, lol..dream on? ) or by wearing desirable masks (either anniston or einstein, depending on situation). How I also wish that things are as easy as gulping the formulated drinks or changing a wardrobe of masks every day.

SO just appear, as who you wish to appear: Build your own charisma, shape your own personality, establish your own charm, and make the best appearance!

鄭秀文 - 上帝早已預備

I wish someday I would do the same, probably not by singing, but through the real talent that is embedded in me... ( but who knows? probably i have a talent to sing also, which is yet to be discovered =P )
Everyone is gifted in their own ways.. It all depends on the individual on how determined they are to discover their talents and use it to glorify, honour and praise Him eternally.


Matt 6:10- Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.

when i was a child....

- Somewhere Out There Lyrics

Performed by Phillip Glasser (Fievel) & Betsy Cathcart (Tanya)

Fv: Somewhere out there,
beneath the pale moonlight,
someone's thinking of me and loving me tonight.

Ty: Somewhere out there,
someone's saying a prayer,
that we'll find one another in that big somewhere out there.

(*)Ty: And even though I know how very far apart we are,
it helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright star.

Fv: And when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullaby,
it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Together: Somewhere out there,
if love can see us through,
then we'll be together, somewhere out there,
out where dreams come true.

Character key:
Fv = Fievel, Ty = Tanya, Tg = Tiger.

moving forward..

Graduated, unofficially. -- without the scroll, flowers, teddy bears, snap snap photos, and huggies from parents? well all these are due october, all are invited!! =)

Somehow the feelings aren't the ones i expected.

I thought I would have the freedom feelings as I enter another stage of my life. However, this interchanging process is long and difficult to please. Please myself and please my future employer. After going through dozens of selections ( as in I select them, they select me), I am still not very satisfied with the current opportunities that I hold.

Advises like
-- fresh grad, don't be so choosy-lah...
-- just work temporarily first and decide if it suits you..probably, it will?
-- go for your interest, money is not a big deal!
--go for the company that pays more with good benefits....

and I am in the position like
-- go as many interviews as possible, ( up to the extend that my dad says, aren't you tired hoping from one to another for interviews? Just choose 1 that is the BEST now)..

define BEST please? When you expect the BEST, and the BEST just turns into BEAST, eventually is a big big attack which leads to spiritual warfare. Frankly I'm tired. I hope history will not repeat itself this week. I pray for the best this month to decide for the best employer, who decides on me, that is part of God's decision in the pathway that He decided for me.

Matt 6:33 (But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well)

remarks: I will try beyond my best, and God will do beyond the rest.. *winks*

i miss the 10 things in my life

i miss the times where i can have someone to talk to..
i miss the comforts and emotional strength given..
i miss the outings in penang..
i miss the days with no worries..
i miss the celebrations after my hardwork..
i miss the glory everytime i win..
i miss the confidence i used to own..
i miss the feelings of falling in love..
i miss the pretty girl in china now..
i miss the laughter i used to have...., when i was really contented and satisfied with the situation, which im pretty sure is not the current situation i am in ...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

hot! hot! hot!

This year's CNY celebration is pretty similar to last year's, which includes the food-that-makes-me-fat (mum's a fabulous cook) , the same hairstyle that i kept(i just need a little more courage to change it,it's near) the people i hang out with (my gals!!!), the places i went (park royal beach!!), the activities i did (bla,bla,bla...good & bad) , the houses i visited (bw-->png-->kl-->PNG), the angpow money i received (RM*** only), except two things (2!), the clothes i wore &&& the burning weather that kills! (both simple signifies hotter! hotter! hotter! than previous years) =P

My celebration shot up to a maximum peak for the first few days of CNY, and then slopes down steeply which leads to a flat pavement (to cool myself off for a rebound during the coming weekend), and just couple of days before i was officially back imprisoned in upm, it rises again to hit the maximum. Differentiating this maximum is the exact value of the satisfaction gained during the specific duration in CNY. On the other hand, integrating the curve is the total amount of satisfaction eventually obtained throughout the CNy celebration. Perhaps you can have a clue on the number of laughter and smiles flashed.

Considering the nasty calculation, would anyone even bothered to try solving it? Thinking of the importance of obtaining the exact value, your hardwork and all the brainstorming efforts you probably contributed to resolve this maths may as well be flushed and result in unforeseen situations!-- mental problem or depression?

O well, what's life without challenges?? If you nod to that, so i would say, you do the maths! It may probably take months or years, but resolving the value would definitely stimulate a wonderful satisfaction in your heart. In short, it's simply worth-it! Furthermore, by obtaining the exact and total value, you will be capable of estimating and target higher peaks in your life in the upcoming years so as to achieve a better satisfaction and to reach the unreachable?

Don't wait for miracles when you don't start doing miracles. It all begins now.


May God grant great great health to each family members whom i love dearly!

I wish my beautiful girls the very best in this tiger year and future undertakings!! drink more tiger, not Guinness!

awwwwwwwwwwww... my feng shui fishes are kissing.. ( good sign?? )

All's well, End's well ...too? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

favourite video of the big bang year!!

smarty pants =P

"Simply smart and sexy dudes nerds geeks freaks "

Chuck Lorre and Bill Prady did a brilliant job in producing this American sitcom. I'm extremely fascinated by Dr Sheldon Cooper (Jim Parsons). Really looking forward to meet him in person. I think he's the only person who can make me laugh every minute of my life!!!

Thanks for the wonderful companies from Sheldon wannabe and the existing Sheldon contributing to the happiness in my life, I have picked myself up, dust myself off, forget unnecessary things and move on...


Who's up for baskin tomorrow? i miss having ice cream.... by the beach...

Merdeka break 09'


I miss the k session with my beautiful girls

Merdeka break 09'


Girls, lets get DRESSed up this CNY and paint the town red!!!

CNY 09'



p/s: Sheldon wannabe, i want season 3!!!!

爱不单行

the break-up

i still remember i did blog on the movie 'the proposal' almost half a year ago. also, i recommended many many to watch it, as i find it really humorous and it's simply awesome. But for now, i guess i would probably give thumbs down for the movie. Well, don;'t get me wrong, Thumbs down as in i refuse to watch it anymore, not because it's no longer good. I just dont want to be a fool reminiscing all day long.

But this movie here, 'the break up' is different. Jennifer Aniston never failed to make fabulous appearance in my life. For those who hasnt catch this movie before, i strongly recommend it. =)
Nevertheless i wouldn't wanan recommend this movie for a broken hearted person. It's just gonna bring up million beautiful ugly memories.

ANy movies to burn memories? SInce young, mum said dun play with fire, so are there any other options to burn bad memories? ppl may say, time heals, but im the kinda type who love speedy works. Betul, cepat, tepat.

Speaking of wiping memories, the two recent taiwan dramas that im currently watching, can do it pretty easily. The main cast in both series, namely vanness wu and show luo, lost their memory due to silly accidents. BOO the storyline. why don't the story writer just state that it is Alzheimer's disease? |||

Anyway, why so serious? it's jus drama anyway. How tremendous life is if people's romance are as innocent as those from the taiwan series?


Even from the picture, it tells the storyline. You can just guess the ending. (well you still have one day ++ to slowly guess as the last episode will only be screened in taiwan tomorrow evening.) perhaps i need some advise or tuition from rainnie yang. how could she has the courage to be attached to chou bu la chi xiang ku tou??
I bet she just want to keep things simple, the way she favours, the type she loves dealing with, the feeling she longs for, the ending she predicts, the love she simply loves.
Problems would just vanished having someone to love you as much as you love yourself, huh? But girls are typically silly, rannie yang could be exceptional.

Choose wisely gals, dont be a fool crying over some irresponsible maniac someday. cheers!! =)



Thank you guys & gals for the wonderful company yesterday. One of the memories that i wouldn't wanna delete. =)

lame |||

i once never agreed on blogging, as i find it was a waste of precious time announcing your daily routine to the world. i even teased my friends who blogged, then , couple months later.. i created one. sweat, I'm so easily influenced. now what i regretted was, why i didnt start blogging earlier?
i reviewed back my friendster blog, i almost forgot that i have one. Reminisce of my past. It was quite a beautiful experience reading back my own blog. So i should write more for my own reference in the future. Just in case i might forget who I was in the past.

but i'm lazy.

this is me speaking for this brand new year!